The year that lies ahead is feeling very much like my Senior year of high school. Graduation looms ahead, the thoughts of “what college do I attend next?” and “What will I do for a job?” are ever present. My Senior year it was easier – I was just 18, living at home with no bills, working at the newspaper as a telemarketer, and I knew that I would attend community college.
This time around – I’m 33. I live on my own with plenty of bills – and I don’t know what college to attend next. I’m not even certain what career I want to pursue! I’ve changed my mind so many times – but it’s crunch time. On Monday, I will turn in the application for a degree and will soon fill out my FAFSA. That FAFSA is going to have one stubborn question on it. “What college will you attend in 2012-2013?”
I don’t know, FAFSA. I don’t know.
The things I do know – in May I’ll have my Associates degree which has been in the making since 1996. The week after graduation I’m gifting myself a vacation to New York City. After that…I don’t know. Will I be able to find a higher paying job with an Associate degree? Will I need to get a job to work around a university schedule, or will the school schedule still fit around me?
I’m very much looking forward to the trip to NYC, I’m guessing it’ll be a good time to “find myself” since I’ll be there almost alone. I’m staying with the friend of a friend in Queens (never been to Queens!) and will be alone during the day. Any big life changes I’ve ever made have come just after a vacation. Something about the plane ride? Maybe the altitude clears my head.
If anything, that vacation will give me some great blog topics – I have no doubt!
It’s a strange feeling to have been working towards this goal of graduation for the last two years solid, and now that it’s here…I almost don’t know what to do with it.